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State of the Everything!
Oct. 29th, 2016 11:05 pmIt's been many eons since I've last done one of these but here goes!
State of the Me: I'm feeling better recently than in the last couple months. For some reason, I took a horrible dip and started feeling extremely insecure and disposable. Every time I went on Twitter, I felt like I didn't belong there, which in turn made me feel all the more irrelevant. I felt like friendships I thought I could count on were fading, and I constantly worried that my existence was complete pointless. I don't know why that happened when it hasn't been that bad in a long time but it did spur a Twitter break, which helped a bit. I still have weird days when I dwell on the fact that I tend not to be someone people care to regularly talk to, but I'm trying not to let myself take it personally. I can't be online 24/7, my job doesn't allow for that like my old one usually did, so maybe that's what makes me feel so disconnected sometimes. BUT like I said, I'm doing my best not to bitch about it so much because there's really no point in that.
Instead, I've been trying to put more effort in concentrating on the good. I got to go to Disney World and act a fool with some of my faves, I've just booked a Vegas trip for February, work is going well and doesn't make me want to jump off roofs, my bf is wonderful always, one of my best friends just got a new job that serves literally the best tacos I've ever put in my mouth... so things are actually great, and it's actually nice to have written all that down.
In any case, enough about me, on with the pups :D
( let it goooooooooooooooooooooooo, let iT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO )
State of the Me: I'm feeling better recently than in the last couple months. For some reason, I took a horrible dip and started feeling extremely insecure and disposable. Every time I went on Twitter, I felt like I didn't belong there, which in turn made me feel all the more irrelevant. I felt like friendships I thought I could count on were fading, and I constantly worried that my existence was complete pointless. I don't know why that happened when it hasn't been that bad in a long time but it did spur a Twitter break, which helped a bit. I still have weird days when I dwell on the fact that I tend not to be someone people care to regularly talk to, but I'm trying not to let myself take it personally. I can't be online 24/7, my job doesn't allow for that like my old one usually did, so maybe that's what makes me feel so disconnected sometimes. BUT like I said, I'm doing my best not to bitch about it so much because there's really no point in that.
Instead, I've been trying to put more effort in concentrating on the good. I got to go to Disney World and act a fool with some of my faves, I've just booked a Vegas trip for February, work is going well and doesn't make me want to jump off roofs, my bf is wonderful always, one of my best friends just got a new job that serves literally the best tacos I've ever put in my mouth... so things are actually great, and it's actually nice to have written all that down.
In any case, enough about me, on with the pups :D
( let it goooooooooooooooooooooooo, let iT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO )
