I don't really feel like I can talk to anyone about the manager when even my ABM, who feels the same way (she's admitted to me that she's gone home and cried over work because of the BM to her husband and that she's thought about quitting because of it), doesn't plan on doing it. The regional manager is who the complain would go to and quite frankly, she's not a particularly good support system either. I'd want what I have to say about the BM to stay anonymous but honestly, I don't think that would even be possible. It would just be so obvious when there's only six of us working in the branch.

As far as looking for another job, I definitely don't plan on staying with the bank for an especially long period of time. If I get the promotion, I would probably stay for another year. I hit two years on January 7 (fuck all mention of it from anyone, of course, our previous regional had made it a point to congratulate me and celebrate it but this one and the BM don't give any shits), and I was just like -____- My previous manager was insistent that I ought to be an assistant manager because he thought I was so capable, and I hate that I lost someone like that. There are so many things I want to say about this BM and about how awful she is, but I just get so angry that I don't even want to get into it. Anyway, if I don't get the promotion, I will definitely be looking for a new gig sooner rather than later. I'm thinking about applying for a civil servant job, if I can find one that pays well.

I have planned on seeing a doctor, now it's just a matter of gathering the courage to do it. I'm not good at the whole doctor thing, I barely go when I have a cold and hate having to do it even then. This is a whole new ballpark for me, feeling this way, I've seriously never felt like this before in my entire life, and I know it's primarily to do with work. I just need to bite the bullet soon. Thank you for your kinds words <3