It's an awful way to feel <3 you aren't a burden and though we don't talk as often as we might I fo enjoy your tweets and enthusiasm about things and life and actors and all sorts of stuff.

It sounds like work is at the core of it all and that sucks. Promotion or not maybe it is time to start looking for something else? Is there anyone else you can talk to about your manager? Sending you to return shoes and stuff like that is bullshit.

I don't have much advice to give other than to say it might be a good idea to see some professionally? A counsellor or some such? Also I love you and it sounds so hard right now. <3